I wanted to be

I wanted to be

I wanted to be a famous musician

So I could prove to my father

That I was worthy of his love.

And then I realized,

That he would never love me.

I wanted to be a famous painter

So I could prove to my mother

That I was worthy of her love

And then I realized

That she would never love me,

I wanted to be a famous writer

So I could prove to my family

That I was worthy of their love

And then I realized

That they would never love me.

I wanted to be a media star

So I could prove to the world

That I was worthy of their love.

And then I realized

That the world would never love me.

There was nothing I could prove

To anyone –

Ever.

And then…

I wanted  to be happy

So I could prove to myself

That I was worthy of my own  love.

And then I realized

I was already worthy.

I had nothing to prove.

So I had a cup of tea

And read a good book

And went to sleep.

Copyright©2014 William Schaeffer